MEDITATE

Excuse me while I medicate, damn I mean meditate
Got so much on my mind, I got so much on my plate
I guess this the price you pay when you try to become great
I’m sorry moms im not married, so sorry I haven’t gave you any grand kids
But right now children aren’t inclusive to the way I live
I’m just trying to be the man I envisioned as a child
And no I’m not hustling, finally trying to live right
Praying to the lord that guide me to the light, I’m praying to the lord that he guide me to my wife
And yes I think I found her but why can’t I do right
Sometimes I want to be left alone, sometimes I want to be included,
Most of the time I want to be included with the option of being left alone
Come to think about it I haven’t been to church in a while
I’m not so much religious I’m more spiritual now
Communication is the key to any relationship and I’m not a very good communicator I keep so much held w/in
Sometimes I get so angry I gotta smile and I grin, so I pick up my paper and release it with my pen
Trump say he wanna make America great again, I wonder if people of color is welcomed in
I know I’m all over the place with this here, I’m trying to get my mind right, trying to get my mind clear.
I can’t lie getting money makes me feel alive, and right now I feel like I’m barely getting by
I’m not holding back right now I can’t control these tears, I’m not running anymore I’m ready to face my fears
I got my gumption from Ethel Cole in my dreams I saw her last night
She came down from heaven just to tell everything will be alright
And I needed that right there let me call Norma Moody just hearing her voice will soothe me
Somethings you just won’t understand the trials and tribulations it’s taken me to become a man
It’s so hard to share my insecurities so medicate, damn ok I mean meditate
I’m saving her this last dance and I pray to the lord she gives me another chance

LOW KEY COY

I shy away from the spotlight Thus, I keep my distance from everyone 

Ever wonder how this low key guy copes with everyone

Naw, you probably don't , because I'm so good at hiding it

I ask you is Jim Carey  The Mask or is The Mask Jim Carey, it's scary,

Anxiety and trust play a major role in my brain 

Searching for answers I get lost in my mind

Hold up I'm about to answer your question just give me some time

See the herbal push aside feelings that consume every moment of the day 

but them problems never go away

I had to learn to look in the mirror and deal with them face to face

Damn.....fuck this isolation that's what i always say 

but when you come around for some reaon I always walk away

It's not the same with me everyday of the year changes are there,

No matter how small they may appear

I'm listenig to everything you say you want and need, and no, it's not too much to ask i would agree

Am I condifent, am I too silent, and I cheerful today? 

May need time for myself, or I may just ask if you would like to stay

"I know that I'm an introvert!" I scream that in my head every other day 

"I kow that I'm an introvert!" so why's that so bad. 

On bad days I usually sit around and write, use to ride my bike, 

Now I'm hooping or at the gyrm half the night 

Sometime being around people tires me I struggle to speak 

But I love a good conversations

I find my peace in being alone, my adventures are found inside my mind 

And I place them inside my notebook

I'd rather sit at home on my throne; I no longer hit the clubs looking for looks and admiration

Expressing myself in words sometime seem impossible 

I long to speak, but I must be apporached first

Just kow that once you've cracked my shell, you may like what you find

I'll even give you a short tour of what's going on up in my mind 

And even if I'll  need my time,  a day or so just for me

Just know I'm always thinking of you and will be there for you as I ought to be! 

ODE TO HER

Just as sure as 1 + 1 = 2

Baby girl I'll be there for you 

You are mine and I am yours 

Your the only girl that I truly adore

I know from time to time I may act mad wreckless

You and I together can make the world jealous

Turn on some music preferably jazz

In the living room slow dancing grabbing that ass

I picked up some Sangria let's sip some wine

And later on let's get freaky on the FaceTime 

I'm a junky for your love baby girl I need a fix 

when I'm away I really really I miss your kiss 

Blue Dream gets me high but your essence gets me higher

I love to get fly but when I'm w/ you I'm flyer 

sweeter than a swisher 

If I had to choose I'd always pick her 

I'm thankful for her everyday cause she make my life richer. 

I got what you want and you got what I need

I've been thinking about rings & getting on bended knee

Don't you ever think about leaving, you forever mine your love is special one of a kind

I've searched my entire life for a woman like you and my love is ring and sound off true

Everyday I want to be a better man for you

I'm blessed to have you in my life and call you my boo

I don't ever have to question you always got my back you have strength wherever I lack

And I am strong where ever your weak I will always be there cause you can count on me

My heart burns for you and that flame won't diminish,  in the bed giving you  a strong finish

I know that line would give you a smile 

This that O'jays, Al Green, bobby blue band type of love 

This that shit my grand parents always spoke of 

Your love is a drug and I need my pill 

Always trying to see you 4 hrs to get to  Nashville 

Let's hit a movie, concert or a show 

Love it when you dress up you so fine head to toe 

Sometimes I catch myself watching you fall asleep 

And then I just lightly rub and caress your cheek

Picturing you and I doing this for life 

Me and you together Baby girl I don't have to think twice

Had to get off Twitter bitches all up in my mentions 

Had to make sure I gave you all my attention

Niggas keep asking me how can I afford her

Been praying for her all my life and that's my reward Bruh 

Pack your favorite panties let's board a plane

Love you in those Gucci heels they match your frame 

Fire & Ice

I have ice water flowing through my veins they say I don't care

Holding all my feelings inside for only me to bear

Why share, when those you care for most hurt you the most leaving you in despair 

Now I'm lashing out I didn't mean to say that but when the ice in these veins meets the fire in my heart 

It boils, slowly at first heating up like a tea pot on the stove until 

That loud sound of the tea whistle blows 

I'm scared of that action b/c if I blow that  action will cause a reaction and I'm scared to go down that road

I've been called selfish many times and yes it is true but when the selfish person is not me what should I do. 

Iron Mike Tyson set his opponents up with a great jab until that one shining moment his opponent lets his guard down then POW 

upper cut has them seeing stars 

Your amazed at the upper cut and what raw power it brings but you didn't see those hundred jabs that brought the sting

Pen in my hand letting my thoughts flow Today was my birthday if you didn't already know. 

33 I am a very significant number to me and never did I think it would bring out the worst in me

GOD, I know this has to be a test and no I'll never defy your holy name

I thank you for these test and the strength it brings. 

My love is upset with me b/c I'm not interested in the things she did for me 

I don't understand when I did everything in my power just to lay by her side 

Now that ice is meeting the fire and I feel that tea pot just may blow 

Lord please calm these nerves, so much is on my mind, like when I get fired Monday a job I gotta find. Bills still need to be paid, Christmas gifts purchased, bank account ugly as fuck, guess it's safe to say I'm down on my luck

And the question I keep asking myself

what money is coming in????

Lord I need answers so it's you I come to begin

I made a promise to not go back to these streets knowing it's so easy for me 

But I'm not that man anymore and I'm not trying to be

Lord I'm learning these lessons as you take me through the Fire, I know your there even when I can't feel or see you b/c I know the devil is a liar 

I want to smoke to ease my mind and help me sleep but I promised myself to stop and get my system clean

I know I'm hard headed I get that from William Moody and I miss him so much honestly and truly 

If he were here he would give me a prayer cloth, something I never cherished as a child

But oh Lord do I ever need one now. 

I can Ethel's voice "My child stay in GODs light"  

G-Ma this battle I will not lose, I have so much to give to this world so much more to prove!

This ice must melt and this fire must cool and then I'm giving all praises to GOD, let the church say AMEN!

By any means Necessary

By Any Means Necessary

"Imani Rose, Rose Realty"..Imani answered slightly flustered. "Yes, Imani are we still on at 3 to see the house?" the caller asked. "Of course, I was getting ready to walk out the door Havana. I'll meet you all shortly. I'm running a little late, so give me about 30 extra minutes." Imani stuttered. "Okay, see you soon.."Havana coo'd on the other end. Imani hung up. "Why does she tease me so..and why now?" Imani said aloud while staring in her office mirror.
      Imani went to college with Havana, she was her roommate from freshman to senior year in college. They had messed around a few times but Havana wasn't really into girls. Imani had been the only girl she had ever been involved with. So needless to say after they graduated college, the fun was over. Imani stayed in Colorado and Havana moved back home to Las Vegas to dive into the beauty industry. She was the retail manager of the Inglot store in Ceasar's Palace but something..someone led her back to Colorado to settle down. That someone was Dominic.

Imani pulled up into the driveway of the two story all brick home. This was her best design yet she was anxious and excited all at the same time to show this house and see her ex lover..roomie..friend. She didn't know why Havana asked her to be her realtor but she just wanted to see her. It had been 6 years since they had seen each other. Imani walked in the house, a pair of men's Converse were left at the door. 50th anniversary Barbie Christian Louboutin shoes laying at the bottom of the stairs. Imani thought to herself, "why are their shoes thrown on the floor, where are they?" Imani followed the trail of clothing upstairs to the master bedroom.

Imani didn't know what to think. Since she was running late she gave Havana the code to get inside the gate. Imani always had extra security on her properties. They were fully decorated with the latest interior design and customized floor plans. She didn't want anyone copying her blue print.

Imani peeked through the open bedroom door. She heard someone moaning and saw steam from the shower streaming into the bedroom. "Hmmm...damn...Dom..inic.." Havana moaned from the bathroom. Imani couldn't believe her ears or eyes, Havana and Dominic could not be making love in the shower she thought. Oh but she was wrong. Mouth dropping, Imani stared into the master bathroom mirror. Dominic couldn't see her but Havana was staring Imani dead in the eyes. Imani broke contact a little pleasantly bothered by her current situation. "Yes daddy, I love the way you kiss it...French kiss it baby, yeah right..ther.." Havana stuttered what Imani thought to be the word "there"' Havana's back was against the wall, steam making the glass hazy.. Havana wiped the glass with one hand and grabbed the back of Dom's head with the other. Imani could see Dom's tongue circling Havana's pink swollen clit. He had a rhythm going, Imani was surprised. She knew no one could ever top her head game..whether it was male or female..but she thought maybe today was the day she would be proven wrong.
      Imani couldn't take her eyes off of his lips. He lifted Havana's leg up and over his right shoulder. He played with her vertical hood piercing, flicking it up and down with his tongue. Havana's curly auburn sun burned hair was dripping wet and water constantly streamed down her chest past her navel to her clit making her wetter. The sensation of Dom's tongue was taking her over the edge. She pushed her pelvis forward while still leaning back on the shower wall..Dom slid two fingers inside her and stroked her while licking circles around her clit. Havana couldn't take the sensation..the circles..the penetration..the water. It was too much but she wasn't ready to get off the ride. She reached down and grabbed Dom's free hand and put two fingers in her mouth. Havana never took her eyes off Imani.
     Dom grunted as Havana opened her mouth and slid his pointer and middle finger into her warm sloppily wet mouth. Water was streaming all around them, not an ounce of their body dry, including their mouths. Havana sucked slowly on his fingers while he pleased her. Imani, in a trance, watches as Havana slides Dom's fingers out of her mouth and parts them like a "V" with her tongue. Knowing Havana is teasing her Imani, feeling bold mouths "Put.. your tongue..back in your mouth...Vanna". Havana was thrown off by Imani's bold move. It turned her on even more. She liked being watched but Imani didn't know that. Imani didn't know that Havana thought about her sometimes when Dominic gave her head. Imani stared back at Havana licking her lips.
Caught off guard, Havana throws her head back, closes her eyes, and starts grinding on Dom's fingers that were still moving inside her. Dom, meeting Havana's intensity,  simultaneously starts tugging, licking, and French kissing her pussy lips in no particular order. Knowing his lady is getting ready to cum, Dom grabs her right breast and pushes her already erect pierced nipple into her moist warm mouth. Havana looses ground, her left leg starts to weaken, but Dom holds her up. Havana starts sucking on her nipple, tugging at it with her teeth..she loved her breast being sucked anytime she had an orgasm and Dom knew that. Dom's intensity grew even more, slurping water and sweet juices, spreading her lips wider so that he could get every drop..Havana screamed out pleasure as her body did its last convulsion and she leaned over and kissed Dom. She loved to taste herself on his lips. Havana looked up and saw that Imani was gone..

Moments later, Havana and Dominic heard the doorbell ring. Dominic opened the door to see Imani standing there, briefcase in hand, Chanel swavorski studded sunglasses on top of her high bun, and a bright red lipstick on her lips. Dominic had heard how beautiful Imani was and he knew how Havana felt about her. Havana didn't know he knew, but some nights in her sleep she would whisper "Mani" and now he has seen this Mani in the flesh. Feeling some heat rise on his next, Dom clears his throat and ivites Imani in. "Come on in, Miss Rose, Havana is upstairs waiting for you, she says she's ready to seal the deal on this house, but we couldn't start without you", Dom smirks as Imani walks pass him and up the stairs. For some reason he knew she would seal the deal by any means necessary.

To be continued..

HER

HER

Her Eyes, they say the eyes are the entrance into the soul, well her soul burns with a fiery glow; so warm and inviting so enticing. Her stare makes me weak to the point where sometimes I can’t even speak I simply gaze at her beauty

Her Lips, the top like the red and the bottom like the pink starburst to taste them is to taste nectar so juicy and sweet.  Thinking about kissing her right now how I wish her lips could meet mine while she’s in my arms out bodies intertwined.

Her Soul, fiery red like the Ruby don’t test her after she say “Don’t do me” because you don't want to see those hands.  Fierce she is like the tigress don’t stand in her way.  I love how she handles her business each and every day.  Strong enough to stand-alone yet humble enough to let a KING lead.  I pray I meet her again in my dreams

Her Temple, only one word will describe what I see and that’s beauty, she is so sexy to me.  Whether she’s in heels or J’s she SLAY and I so enjoy wrapping my arms around her while we lay.  I’m thinking Ginuwine “In those Jeans” I hate to see her leave but love to watch her go that ass is lovely I just thought you should know….

My thoughts about HER

Fist-Tina

I get out the shower wet and body still a little warm from the Hott water still on my body. My dark skin glisten as the steam slowly evaporates from the bath room. I wrap the towel around my body drying myself off. The Hott shower relieves me from a hard long day. Once dry I start to apply Body gel on my body. Squeezing the Bottle watching it ooze out in my hands I begin to rub my hands together warming the gel. I begin to apply it to my still warm body. The gel feels good on my warm skin. Applying it on my legs I run my hands down and up massaging my muscles at he same time. From my calfs to my inner thighs I press hard against them massaging deep tissues to relieve tension from stand all day. I grab the bottle again squeezing out more gel in my hands, then rubbing my hands together to create friction. The gel is warm and against my already warm body it's so soothing. Rubbings hands over my arms I love how the gel brings out my tattoos. The gel helps to accent my tattoos on my dark skin! From my arms to my chest I apply this warm gel caressing my body like my lovers hands would. I love myself I love my body. Even though I can stand to lose a few pounds I love my thick build. As I run my hands on my chest tickling my nipples I start to feel my nature begin to rise. I look down to see my dick was once hiding now it's seeking for this warm sensation that has been applied all over my body. My heart begins to pump a little faster shooting more blood to my lower region allowing my dick to stand at full attention. Squeezing more gel in my hand (a little more than usual) I slowly begin to rub my hands together preheating the gel for what's about to happen.  My left hand reaches down slowly caressing my nuts. I pull and squeeze them. I close my eyes as the feeling begins to take me a place where my hands becomes my lovers hands. My right grabs my shaft pulling my dick closer to me. Like a stick shift in a car I begin to change gears as I speed up the tempo. The gels makes it feel like a wet mouth is over my dick giving it life. As my heart pumps I can feel my dick throbbing in my hands pulsating with every stroke. As the gel warms my body hearts up. The sensation and feeling of a wet mouth licking and sucking me enters my thoughts, my hips begin to slowly rotate to every stoke. I throw my head back as fantasies feel my mind.  My breathing becomes heavier as I keep changing gears and strokes. I begin to rub the tip of my dick, my head expands giving myself girth as I begin to feel my nuts tickle. That's the sign in about to cum. I look down to see my dick glistening in the light. I spread my legs allowing myself to get ready for what's about to happen.  I grip my shaft harder and stroke faster! And like when a gun blast I see a bright light before I begin to cum. My nuts tighten and dick throbs as I see this white creamy cum shoot from my head. A sensation begins to cover my whole body, I'm stuck nothing can move but my hand. My body tingles and a smile covers my face and during this time I stop and think I wish it was you instead of my right hand......